Wasn't lying.

My best friend just sent me this picture in an email. The subject line: thought of you :)

P.S. Happyhappyhappy birthday jess!!

The greatest risk in life is not taking one...

To dare to take a risk is to truly live. We so often have an inspirational idea that empowers us to feel electric with enthusiasm, to then simply relinquish the same idea from a fear of humiliation or rejection. An idea that is shared with us, perhaps from a higher source, is sent to inspire and allow us to live passionately, the way we were granted to experience our life. But because our fear over rides the initial idea, it is forgotten and lost in the ethers.

(from The Greatest Risk of All Deanne Urquhart)

Le Corbusier, Notre-Dame-du Haut

(http://ionarts.blogspot.com/2005/05/le-corbusiers-chapel-at-fifty.html)

(flickr.com- wolf'sview)

This is one of my favorite churches. Soooo beautiful. I do not even love modern architecture, but I cannot deny the love I have for this church. I found the exterior image on another blog, and I am just so grateful that someone else has an appreciation for such a wonderful and innovative building. I am so fortunate. I have the privileged of studying this. Each day I get to continuously surround myself with the products of innovative and artistic minds that are truly visionaries. I am utterly amazed. For all of the destruction humanity creates, humanity also creates so much beauty. I feel like that is not emphasized or encouraged enough.

More peanut butter!!

For those of you that know or don't know, I have a peanut butter obsession. Yes. I would define it as obsession. I actually must eat it everyday or I get thrown off. Discovered a new peanut butter company today, the Saratoga Peanut Butter Company (organic!!!). check it out http://www.yopeanut.com/. I'm uber pumped.

When I say...I'm a Christian

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."

I'm whispering "I was lost,

Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my share of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Maya Angelou

(designspongeonline.com)

Image: weheartit.com

Dangit.

I didn't mean to disturb the peace.

I guess this is what I get for listening to the false encouragement of John Mayer's "Say."

Say what you need to say. Right. Ok.

My heart is beating like a sprinter that tripped and fell.

If I was Will Smith I could erase this memory Men in Black style.

Analyze analyze

Of course I notice. Of course I pick up on the little insignificant details of your words.

This is what I've been taught to do.

Search for the hidden meaning.

Look.

If a feather and a coin fall in a vacuum will they accelerate at the same rate?

The cabinet files in my brain burst with the overabundance of trivial information.

I wonder what would happen if I just breathed?

Semi-conscious. Brain half off.

That was the promise.

The promise of a fleeting hope.

What greater love is there than God's love for each one of us? His love isn't fantasy. It is real.

Mother Teresa

Heart of Joy

April 27

Sometimes I think I forget this. It comes as an after thought. I think about turning to so many different people or things, but God- He's all I need. And it's only when coming to God that I ever end up feeling fulfilled. Then why is it so hard for me to remember?

This side.

"One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean

Take her or leave her

She will still be the same

She'll not try to buy you with her time

But nothing's the same, as you will see when she's gone"

Nickel Creek, This Side

I am tired, Beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you; of squeezing it into little inkdrops, And posting it.

-Amy Lowell, “The Letter”

http://heisjealousforme.tumblr.com/

When I first read this, I though someone had read my journal.

(image: weheartit.com)

Freudian slips

Freudian slip: a verbal or memory mistake that is believed to be linked to the unconscious mind.

(http://psychology.about.com/od/sigmundfreud/f/freudian-slip.htm)

Jessie and I were talking about Freudian slips yesterday, and how sometimes wonderful things result. Cool how things in life always have a way of relating to one another.

All that we have

All that we have and all that we offer.
Comes from a heart both frightened and free.
Take what we bring now and give what we need.
All done in His name.

Sometimes the road may be lonesome, often we may lose our way.
Take courage and always remember love isn’t just for one day.
Sometimes when troubles are many, life can seem empty and true.
But look at the life of the Master who lovingly suffered for you.

I think there is something that can make us live joyfully. It is that Jesus is with us and loves us. If each one of us would simply remember that God loves us and is giving us the chance to love others in that love- not so much in big things but in the little things of life - our countries could become full of God's love.

Mother Teresa

Heart of Joy

April 24

Yogi Tea :)

"Our intuition lies in our innocence"

(image: thedailybalance.com)

No thank you.

Jessie and I stumbled upon this box of intrigue on a Sundry mission. Oh dear me. Never would I have guessed I'd see the day when Barnum's Animal crackers would team up with Lily Pulitzer to beautify their boxes. As Jessie said "how did this even come about?" To each his own!

image: iPhone. sorrrry Jessie.

In ten years.

A dear friend sent me this image informing me that this would be my boyfriend and I in ten years. As of right now, I can't say I disagree.

(image: weheartit.com)

4/20

Someone wished me "happy holidays!" today, and then asked me if I participated. After no response from me due to major distraction (surprise), he proceeded to accuse that I had. Later when I went to respond, I was utterly confused and replied "what holiday? Earth day?" He came back with "sure you could call it that...haha." Then I remembered. silly silly Carolyn

And I like him.

In about 3 minutes:

Mackenzie: If it's not on your blog, then it didn't happen

Jessie's Mom: I think it's great to remember what Jesus would do, but you're not Jesus.

Jessie: Help yourself it's an adventure down there...

Nancy: That's what she said.

I love my life.

Me: I want to shave my head.

Jessie: bahaha

Mackenzie : (while shaking head) Not the answer.

The inner bitch strikes again:

"If a woman succeeds at anything, the chances are good she's going to be called a bitch at some point. Your Inner Bitch wonders if that's really such a bad thing."

April 19, Monday

"You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In face, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it."

Maya Angelou

Vulnerability.

(weheartit.com)

but made himself nothing,

taking the very nature of a servant,

being made in human likeness.

And being found in appearance as a man,

he humbled himself

and became obedient to death-

even death on a cross!

Therefore God exalted him to the highest place

and gave him the name that is above every name.

Philippians 2:7-9

"The problem with our generation is not that we do not love Jesus Christ, it is that we do not believe that He will ever love us completely."

Fr. Jude

if you know me. you'll understand.
hint: be wary.

(kreativekatherine.tumblr.com)

Huh.

The title of my study playlist is "Let your mind wander..." Sounds more counterproductive.

(image: http://iamagonistes.wordpress.com/2009/05/04/musing-on-the-topic-of-humility/)

old journals, revisited.
jan 19, 2008: (titled: beautiful causes.) falling asleep with your make up on, tear ducts, stretch marks, dark circles, overweight fathers who put everything into providing good lives for his wife & children that he doesn’t have time to work out, wedding rings that never come off, dirty hair, thrift store clothes, long hours, dollar store razors, sweat stains, worn in church pews, penny pinchers, broken hearts over broken homes, wrinkles, mismatched socks, simplicity, scars, rock bottom and back, blisters, mistakes, loving til you’re exhausted, faith in the One who makes your heart beat, soup kitchens, dependencies, elderly humans who share life lessons, boys who love so deep they cry, radical generosity, harmony.

give me these over diamond rings and billion dollar homes; place me beneath you in the corporate chain, i am sustained by Christ’s blood alone, i thrive when serving. wear me down, rip me open, shatter me; i have already been rescued.

love is a journey that knows no end.

(from tali)

when i read this slowly and thoroughly, it brings tears to my eyes. :)
(from kreativekatherine)

I would be really ok with this being my bedroom.

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Love hurts.

"Love has to hurt to be true. It hurts Jesus to love us. It truly hurt him."
Mother Teresa
13 April
Heart of Joy

This is really interesting. Whenever in discussion with my best friend about love, we always end up concluding that the only description we can give for love is that it hurts. Makes ya think.

Airbrush Tattoos on the Quad. It's a green feather. nbd. The man traveled all the way from Grand Rapids, Michigan to bring spontaneous joy to students. What a great great man. Good heart.

God is love.

(weheartit.com)

Lived by this motto for a while then realized that I didn't fully understand what it truly meant to love. Love is a verb as well as noun. We have a tendency to forget that. I am grateful for the growth that has occurred since those days. God is love.

The Princess and the Pea

(http://fineartamerica.com/images-medium/the-princess-and-the-pea-sharon-furner.jpg)


One time I had trouble sleeping because I was thinking...wouldn't the pea get squished under the mattresses?

"If we trust enough in Him to bring us together, then why don't we trust enough in Him to redeem the situation?"

a guest preacher at my campus ministry on divorce and Christianity. good thoughts to let marinate. also applicable to other situations in life. if we trust in God enough to not give us anything we cannot handle, then why do we not trust in Him enough to help us through those obstacles we are given?

(http://www.designspongeonline.com/2010/04/sneak-peek-yvette-laduk.html)

In my mind I view the world in sepia light.

photo by moi.

I love finding typos or just mistakes in general in textbooks.

In the book Dutch and Flemish Painting by Pierre Courthion there is a paragraph printed twice. mmmmmm

Working on it.

Ben Steed
wwww.heartlight.org